It is nearly the end of March tonight as I start this diary. It has been a very long time since I have posted here and there are many reasons for this…most of all because it has been a very, very brutal 12 or more months for me.
The Moose seems to have changed a lot since I was last here, but I think a few of you may remember me and hope that I brought a few smiles and laughter to an otherwise often harsh and frustrating world. I am afraid I have not had much reason to smile for a long time now and have mostly spent the last nine months in extreme denial, despair, anguish, grief and crying.
Music has always been an outlet of sorts for how I am feeling. Unfortunately I have not allowed myself to listen to much lately, as the pain is too frightening and overwhelming. For some reason I allowed myself to listen to some of my favorites on the Tubes and what started with Joan Armatrading’s Love and Affection and ended my little journey with this tear jerker from kd lang…